When Growth Feels Like Attack

Usually I can muster patience — even when I’m tired.
Usually I can smile and listen to complaining — even when I’m annoyed.
Usually I can let comments roll off my back — even when they’re offensive.
But can I be honest?
Lately, as we’ve been walking through this *Triggered* series about not taking offense, I’ve noticed something strange.
I feel more triggered than usual.
It’s subtle sometimes — just a thought scrolling through my mind:
“Well, you know what I think…”
Or, “Go ahead. Say something dumb one more time.”
Wait a minute.
I’m actively praying about this. I’m intentionally trying to grow in this area. So why does it feel like the struggle is intensifying instead of easing up?
Why does the very thing I’m trying to overcome seem to be flaring up?
I have a suspicion.
Spiritual attack.
Scripture warns us this would happen.
“Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” — 1 Peter 5:8
When we begin paying attention to our weak spots, we shouldn’t be surprised if the lion circles those exact areas. Increased awareness can expose vulnerabilities — and the enemy is always looking for openings.
Don’t misunderstand me. I’m not suggesting we stop pursuing growth. Quite the opposite. But we must recognize that growth creates spiritual resistance.
Jesus makes it clear there are two competing agendas at work:
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” — John 10:10
The enemy wants irritation to become offense.
Offense to become division.
Division to become distraction.
Jesus wants something entirely different — abundant life. A life that reflects His heart, His patience, His mindset.
So what do we do when we feel the pressure rising?
James gives us the path:
“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” — James 4:7
First: submit.
That means it’s not about my ego.
Not about defending my preferences.
Not about proving my point.
It means surrendering my reactions before they ever leave my mouth.
Then: resist.
Not in my own strength — but anchored in God’s truth and perspective.
I’ve had to practice this repeatedly lately. Pause. Pray. Submit. Repeat.
And here’s what I’m realizing: the battleground of offense may actually be one of the most important arenas of spiritual maturity.
Imagine the impact we could have if we consistently chose surrender over irritation… humility over defensiveness… abundance over destruction.
I’m working on it.
And I need people around me who will encourage me, challenge me, and remind me when I start drifting.
I hope you seek out the same.